The Many Misadventures of an Aspiring Raw-Foodist

The purpose of this blog is to give you a realistic view of the transition to a raw vegan life and the restoration of health. It isn't always easy. I don't always feel amazing. But in the end it is worth it. My hope is that I can inspire others to make positive changes in their own lives.



1.25.2010

Confessions of a Sugar-holic

I used to eat sugar from the time I finished my protein shake in the morning to the time I went to bed (around midnight). I tried everything I could think of to quit, but it was all I could think about. The only time I ever went without sugar was during my liver cleanses, and then I was just counting down the days until I could have it again. That was all that got me through it. During the 4 days after my first cleanse I ate a gallon of ice cream and a dozen chocolate Entenmann’s doughnuts.

Of course my husband didn’t approve of me eating that much sugar, especially since I was always complaining about being fat and sick, so I hid a lot of it from him. I would go grocery shopping without him, buy 2 packs of cookies, put 1 upstairs in the kitchen and 1 on the food storage shelf in the laundry room. That way, when I finished the 1 upstairs (in a day) I could replace it with the other one and it looked like I hadn’t eaten many. Then I would buy 2 more packs and repeat the process. I would stuff packages deep down in the trash and then take it out before he got home so he wouldn’t see all the packages and wrappers. I would buy m&ms or chocolate chips and keep them in the back of the freezer where he wouldn’t see them. When he would go out of town for Chiropractic workshops I would eat a pound of m&ms, or ½ a chocolate cake in one day. I didn’t want to eat sugar at all, I hated it. I was sick all of the time. But the cravings would drive me insane until I gave into them. I could never get enough. I could not “satisfy” my chocolate craving. It was all about consumption, the pleasure was in the swallowing. It was a compulsive thing. I would eat until I was too sick to eat another bite, then wait for the edge to wear off and eat more. I ate at least a half pound of chocolate a day, and usually some ice cream as well.


It wasn’t until I started eating raw that it began to change. After 6 months I have no sugar cravings. I do crave raw chocolate from time to time, but am eating far less than I was when I started out. Raw food was the answer to my sugar addiction, and I know it can help anyone overcome any substance addiction. It purifies your body, reconnects your instincts. Your body begins to want only what is beneficial for vitality. You’re able to feel the full effect of the foods that are harmful to you. Raw food is a very powerful, wonderful, and lifesaving thing!

1 comment:

  1. I just wanted to say I enjoyed reading your posts. I'm looking forward to more. :) (and I totally relate to the "closet-eating"--I found a candy bar behind my mixing bowls the other day) I'm working on it, though.

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